Keshonna Coleman-Matthews's Page

Hi Keshonna! Thank you for your message. What a summer that was!! My husband did get work - he was hired by a competitor - by the end of the summer. Such stress. We've worked hard through fall - I've had work come in (I write freelance) and haven't wanted to turn any down in case there isn't more!!!! So I'm deciding that in 2011 I need to have some time for *me* again, including connecting with other mums through here and in real life. How are you doing? I hope you had a gentle, peaceful Christmas and New Year. (((Hugs)))

Oh - has anyone shared with you the chapter on stillbirth and pregnancy loss in Kimberley Hahn's book God's Plan for Marriage (not sure if I have that title quite right - but don't have much time online)? I found it quite understanding of all the mixed emotions we bereaved mums face and she has so many quotes from Scripture that just hit home. Wanted to share that. (((Hugs)))

Thanks, Keshonna. I'm trying hard to be strong and have faith but I'm just so stressed by my husband being laid off. He's been applying for work non-stop (the good news is I guess there are job postings out there - a few months ago and it was pretty lean). He broke his big toe yesterday though - of all things - running for the phone! Can you imagine? They can't do anything for a broken toe either. Ridiculous. Thanks for your prayers. You are in mine.

p.s. Please pray for our family. My husband was temporarily laid off (if things improve they'll take him back September 30) yesterday and I'm terrified. He's quite specialized and so getting a job outside of his industry may be a challenge. I hope it's not, but I'm sleepless with worry.

I'm so sorry for your loss, Keshonna. I know that another babylost mum I met here where we live said what struck her is the line from Scripture that says to grieve with those who grieve and to laugh with those who laugh. Those of us who are grieving understand the terrible mix of emotions. What mother wouldn't feel angry and hurt that her much-wanted baby died? A mother's love runs deeply. I posted some prayers for bereaved mothers from a little book I have (written by a Jesuit) on the bereaved parent group. Sometimes I just read them over and over.

Sending you love and holding you in prayer after the tragic loss of your baby boy. I'm so sorry you have lost your precious son and as a babylost mum myself (unexpected loss as well - cord compression is the only likely cause for our boy), ahhhh. It's agony and I think God understands our pain and can take our anger. Job 7:11 - Therefore I will not keep silent. I will speak out in the anguish of my spirit. I will complain in the bitterness of my soul.

Welcome to Faith & Family, Keshonna. I am so sorry for your loss. I think being angry with God is a very normal reaction to such a tragic, painful loss. I will keep you and your husband in my prayers.