Roller Coaster Relationship

Hello!

My husband and I are growing in leaps and bounds in our faith.  He converted this last year and I am obsessed with our faith and getting into heaven!  However, we seem to fight everyday.  I know the devil will try and hold us back, but I really need some encouragement. 

My father is an alcoholic and I know I have control issues.  I see it as I'm trying to make everything safe... preventing any bad thing from happening.  We continue to talk about this and I tell him my needs:  He is not my dad...loves me...it's safe here, etc.  But he is from the family that is soooo inconsiderate I can't even begin!!  Therefore, never ever considers how his choices hurt others even on the small side.  Which as you see are the complete opposite. Everything I do I evaluate and try to do the least bothersome to others and it seems he does whatever the heck he wants to do without any regard. 

This has lead to his over sensitivity to anything I say and feeling like he does everything wrong to myself feeling so lonely because he can't stand to be with me.  I even have dreams now of being with other men b/c I just crave that feeling of love so much.  I'm so sick about it, but it seems to just continue.  Of course we have two little ones so everything is interupted and delayed.

Like I said we continue to grow in our faith life.  I do go to confession about these issues and pray about it, but the up and down of making up fighting is too much to bear.

Please advise,

Amanda Jo